CHANGES from the “inside out”
Sometimes I need proof.
I have to confess to being a bit of “Doubting Thomas”and it is sometimes a challenge for me to believe and trust without proof that there is some kind of universal plan, something tangible to believe in…………and then there are those moments that are unmistakable moments of GRACE when I just know what the truth is.
One of those days when I unmistakably knew a truth was Sunday of my sons graduation, when I realized that when all is said and done, that LOVE truly does transcend everything.
LOVE transcends all the mistakes we make, it heals all wounds, and rights all wrongs, forgives others and truly is the universal energy that makes everything worth while.
I have been musing since then about what it really means to change and grow and it got me thinking about life, love, the paths our lives take and of course it made me start thinking and reflecting on my own meandering journey.
The impetuous for all this thinking was my sons High School graduation where friends, family and loved ones gathered to celebrate this milestone in my sons life. He is the youngest of 4 boys and it has been a year of important milestones for all of them.
What has me reflecting most is the feeling of regret for the past and yet I know that feeling regretful is only productive in that it allows me an awareness of where and who I was before, and where and who I am now, how did I get here and what have I learned………so far.
It was from this place that I started to feel regretful for my lack of ability and level of awareness in the past and for the losses that were the result, but also started to feel a new appreciation for my new self that is now compassionate, aware, conscious and has learned to love and live with responsibility for myself without projections, blame, insecurity & judgement.
What the past few weeks has brought me to is the importance of being responsible and accountable for ones own experience and that the measure of our growth and change is in how we act and behave in the world towards others and that it is our human JOB, if you will, to learn, grow, change and become responsible.
We all go through these 4 stages of evolution, change and growth.
1. UNCONSCIOUS INCOMPETENCE
2. CONSCIOUS INCOMPETENCE
3. CONSCIOUS COMPETENCE
4. UNCONSCIOUS COMPETENCE
I would like to think I am somewhere between 3 and 4 LOL
What I realized I needed was LOVE and forgiveness for myself for my lack of ability in the past and to understand that it was the natural process of life to make mistakes and learn from those experiences.
Sometimes the collateral damage feels overwhelming to me and that is when it is hard for me to trust in the UNIVERSE or LOVE or in GRACE or DIVINE INTERVENTION or whatever you want to call it………..but Graduation Sunday I felt it and knew LOVE in it’s truest form to be the truth and the only truth worth trusting.
Standing outside the venue with “my people” waiting to go in for the ceremony, I was struck with the feeling of belonging and of being home in my heart, in spite of all my unconscious incompetencies or theirs as learning humans, I felt the spirit of LOVE amongst us all.
It was a profound moment of feeling in the RIGHT place, at the RIGHT time, with the RIGHT people, in the RIGHT state of consciousness and awareness about myself and others. It was a divine moment of knowing that LOVE is always in us and around us, that it moves us forward to grow, heal, forgive and change, that LOVE is all that matters and that all is well when there is LOVE.
This feeling was magical and I would say absolutely was my proof, if I really needed any, that LOVE is the most important universal energy of GRACE in action. It was tangible and irrefutable.
The point of this, is that we all need to learn to take responsibility for our feelings, thoughts and actions so we can live our best authentic selves.
When we can do that we will be congruent with our real selves and can enjoy a sense of belonging, of happiness, of “rightness” of LOVE for ourselves and others. We all need to TRUST that by living our most authentic responsible self LOVE and GRACE will show up.
“To Live a Conscious Life one must follow the Wisdom of the Heart and the Power of the Mind”